I miss her

I did something difficult yet necessary.  I took her to the regional mental health hospital.  She isn't currently my gf anymore but I love her the same.  She isn't capable of reciprocating,  but maybe the girl that loved me will come back to me.

Dear Lord

Saturday night will be hell.  My girlfriend is going to meet the man she actually loves, and the father of her baby,  and I am supposed to watch the kids and pretend she's at a doctor appt.  She will dump me when she comes back.  Possibly with him.